What an amazing ride this last year has been. I have grown so much, had so many ups and downs, and I will gladly call 2009 one of my greatest. A lot of shit went down, but I have finally learned to take care of myself emotionally & physically... and that is more important than anything else. If I don't have that my life is not really being lived.
I went to Israel!!!! It was one of the most memorable experiences of my life. I saw ancient ruins, floated in the dead sea, climbed the Golan Heights, witnessed Jerusalem on Shabbat, came in contact with the most amazing young soldiers, and made friends that I will never forget. I cannot wait to go back.
The craziest thing is I might not have gone if I wouldn't have made these changes in my life. I might not have seen the top of the Golan Heights, or the waterfalls, or climbed rock walls, or made it to the top of Massada, or down the Snake Path if I hadn't taken a chance on myself and changed my lifestyle.
I have to tell you, when I reached the top of the Golan Heights, and I was sitting on a boulder looking out at what I had just accomplished I almost began to cry. I never would have seen that view, or felt that breeze, 6 months ago. I felt amazing. I felt like God was with me... I wished my family and friends could be with me. That hike meant so much more to me than just some pretty walk- it was a blessing- that I had to earn- for all of my accomplishments.
I am so happy, even thinking about that feeling I had brings tears to my eyes.
Now I cannot wait to see what else the world has in store for me... what other magical wonders I might not have seen that I will see now.
It really is unbelievable... but I have changed my life for the better.
I no longer depend on my friends or family for my source of happiness... I depend on me--- the friends and family are my added bonus ( and what a wonderful bonus they are).
So you can see I am starting off my 2010 with a bang! I have lost 56 pounds now and I couldn't be happier! I keep getting compliments from people I hardly know about how great I look. It feels awesome. Not to mention I found out I have a dimple on my cheek... who knew?!?!
Good News: I am going to be doing QVC in April with Richard!! I am sooo excited and it is going to be a great short term goal for me! I am shooting for 80 pounds by then, and I know I can do it!!!!
The new year is looking bright and I can do nothing but hope the same for all of you!
I love, love, love you!!
