My birthday is December 28th, and as a birthday present to myself I want to be at goal. That is a size 10 and down another 20lbs.
Totally doable. But it is going to be a wicked trial.
The holidays are here. My favorite, Thanksgiving, being based all around the dinner table.
Now food is not the actual meaning of the holiday, it's all about being THANKFUL. I can be thankful without seconds of stuffing... right? Of course I can!
I can also prepare myself, plan out my meals, and double my workout the day before so that I can enjoy myself- not overindulge- but enjoy myself.
There is such a difference between enjoying yourself and overindulging, isn't there? Like this weekend for example --- this weekend I overindulged. I made "No Pudge Fudge Brownies" from Trader Joe's and "enjoyed", almost, the whole pan! Then I went apple picking and "enjoyed" copious amounts of pumpkin bread and SLOW ROASTED TRI TIP... I am salivating just thinking about it. And afterwards, while laying on the couch watching "Jerseylicious", I felt like I was going to go into a food coma. It was totally unnecessary. I could have had 1 slice of brownies and 1 slice of pumpkin bread... but NO. I had to overindulge, thereby feeling like a walking pile of shit for the rest of the night.
But, what's done is done. Point is- I don't want this to happen again, especially on Thanksgiving when I am going to be so close to my showcase. So, its all about planning.
Planning begins today. In order to drop the rest of the weight by my birthday I need to start getting serious again. I have come to a point in my weight loss where I don't burn as much as I used to as easily. It SUCKS. I miss those HIGH calorie burning numbers on my bodybugg. But, if it means I have to weigh more to burn that much then FUCK it! I can still get to that number--- but who has that time in the day? I work 10 hour days... and sit at a desk for almost all of them. I don't have time for two a days! So... I have to do what I have been avoiding like the friggin' bubonic plague... I have to cut my calories again.
The main idea for weight loss is to burn MORE than you consume, thereby having a calorie DEFICIT. My deficit has always been around 1,000 calories a day. Well, for the next 6 weeks I am going to step it up a notch and shoot for a 1,200-1,400 calorie deficit. And in order to do this I am going to be consuming around 1,200 calories per day. It's gonna be pretty rough. But it is what I need to do. I cannot allow myself to go back into old habits (this weekend was, almost, a tribute to them) I mean, you all know --- because I have BLOGGED it--- I am a food addict 100%! I am addicted to food and every emotion that I use it to feed... so I have to stop with the little pleasures for a while. I can still "enjoy" my food... just not as much of it and in healthier options.
Some of you have heard me say that I was hoping to be at goal for my acting showcase in the beginning of December. Well, part of the reason I have stretched it to the end of the month is --- and I am being honest---- because I haven't been on program. But really, when I think about it, I started this journey for ME. I am going to get to my goal as a gift to ME. I don't want to do it for anyone else. I especially don't want to do it for any agents and managers. As far as my career goes, I will figure it all out. I will learn how to market myself again. But I don't want to have a goal that is going to "appease" anyone but myself. I am the most important person in this journey. I am doing it for me and my health and my happiness. The industry related goal seems so against everything I have started this for.
So... it'll be a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME indeed!!!!
It's CRUNCH TIME BABY!!!!
Love, LOVE, and more LOVE!!
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